Life - As I Know It

Life - As I Know It.  2007

Feelings are webbed together. Sometimes I can’t sort out the good and the bad. It’s like dipping your hand in a jar full of honey and it just oozes off.   It’s snowing in Chicago and I’m bundled up, walking against the cold. Alone. Thinking.  Optimistic. Happy I’m alone, but restless all the same. 

 I enjoy the solitude and thoughts of the future. The illusion of love. The illusion of a life I’ve yet to meet, faces yet seen, and rocks left unturned. Can I give that up? Is something wrong with me? Wrong in my head? I can’t accept good enough. It’s never good enough. The grass is always greener in my head, in someone else’s bed.